1

When the brother with Bipolar breaks down in Ozark. Then when his sister leaves the table in the restaurant and she’s driving back and the phone rings and it’s her brother and then it stops ringing and she knows he’s dead. Fucking wrecked me. The actors were phenomenal in those scenes. So good. Such a good series too. I felt heavy and drained and so traumatized after these episodes. I have never felt like that after anything. But seeing that guy Fucking NAIL that meltdown was quite incredible. Ugh Yeesh, I actually had to turn on an episode of Modern Family after to lighten the mood after it.

2

Twin Peaks - bob coming over the couch towards Maddie. I've watched that show too many times to count yet that scene scares me every time. Same with the thing behind the diner in Mulholland drive

3

I was 12ish and watching an episode of CSI at home with my best friend. I hadn't seen many episodes but this episode was about a missing child. The mother was heartbroken, had kept his room exactly as it was the day he went missing... Well, it turned out that she was suffering from postpartum psychosis and had murdered him and buried him in the backyard. She was devastated when they proved she had murdered him as she had no memory of it. My mom was suffering from severe postpartum depression at that time after having my younger brother and had been in and out of the hospital. That episode was so extremely disturbing, upsetting, and terrifying to me, I felt like I had been physically punched in the stomach. I found the mom's story so profoundly sad but also couldn't get the fear of that story out of my head for a long time.

4

Jesse Pinkman’s scene with the young boy on the couch in “Peekaboo.” Knowing that kids live like that hurts me inside… I had a friend whose mom was a crack addict and looking back I remember so much fucked up shit about being at his house.

5

In Heroes when Sylar breaks into Claire’s home, overpowers her, cuts open her head, and rubs his finger along her brain to take her power. All while she is immobilized on the coffee table and unable to die because of her healing ability.

6

The scene where House operates on himself in Season 7.

7

That absolutely batshit insane episode of X-Files with the inbred family living on the farm that had sex with their deformed, amputee mother, helped her give birth and buried the dead fetuses in the backyard.

8

It was a criminal minds episode where a guy was kidnapping blonde teenagers as a substitute for his sister in law who he “loved”. He would tie them up and torture them with sulfuric acid. I was watching the episode on my iPad and when it went to commercial I caught my reflection in the screen. I looked so mortified and I think I ended up just reading the wiki summary.

9

There’s an episode of Fringe where a guy is trying to bring a dead girl back to life by stealing all of her donated organs back from people, and in one scene he hooks her corpse up to a bunch of ropes he has connected to a machine and makes it do a ballet dance. Awesome scene, really well done, but super fucked up.

10

MASH when the lady killed her baby so the enemy wouldn’t hear it and kill everyone on the bus. Hawkeye tried to convince himself it was a chicken in his mind but finally admitted it… as he was the one who told her to keep the baby quiet.

11

In 'The Tudors'. The botched execution of Thomas Cromwell because Henry Cavill got the executioner drunk.7 or 8 tries to kill a man promised a clean death was pretty chilling. History tells us that was pretty close to how it happened too...

12

Dexter where he realizes his wife's in danger and runs in only to find her already murdered by the trinity killer... and his baby in her blood, just like Dexter was sitting in his mom's blood.

13

The seemingly endless rape scene in outlander.. you all know the one I mean

14

Breaking Bad, when Todd killed Andrea in front of Jesse. Made my gut drop to the center of the Earth just seeing Jesse scream in pain. Aaron Paul acted the hell out of that scene.

15

Hannibal… scene where the guy is cutting off chunks of his face and feeding it to his dogs.

16

The 'Bent Neck Lady' subplot of The Haunting of Hill House

17

The Sopranos' rape scene

18

When Buffy finds her mom dead. For a show full of crazy supernatural elements that moment was just so realistic and relatable for so many people.

19

Homelander giving up on the hijacked plane in The Boys!! Just such dread from the people knowing they’re about to die

20

When Lady Sybil dies shortly after giving birth in Downton Abbey. It’s one of the most violent deaths I’ve ever seen on television. And the way her whole family is surrounding her, pleading for her to live, and there’s absolutely nothing they can do.

21

Wallace’s murder on The Wire.

22

Oberyn's head on GOT. Yuck.

23

Freddie’s death in Skins. That scene will actually haunt me until the day I die.

24

Oz, when the neo nazi dude that had a gum transplant that turned out to be from a black guy, and then proceeded to scrape them off with a razor blade. The dentist was Jewish... he trolled that mug

25

Scrubs, my lunch, where Dr. Cox loses four patients. Just rips your heart apart, but also shows the epic quality of acting within the show.